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new blog

2009-10-23T15:57:00.003+08:00

I officially have another blog now. I cant bear to delete this blog as there's too many pictures and memories. :)
Tag, show me some love, relink me babies!
http://lipslikesugga.onsugar.com
:)

2009-06-18T11:12:00.017+08:00

Pictures updated from Mas's Wedding and also my little brother seventh birthday!

2009-06-08T03:39:00.004+08:00

I know this place is left unattended for too long. And yes, if you readers still dont know, I got another blog, where I update most of my daly stuffs. While this blog is for pictures and notices. :)

Pictures below are just for the sake of putting it up. And in case some of you forget how I look like, the pictures below are much more from my own cam whoring session. So dont mind me.

Cheers people! :)

if only.

My eye bags are worst!

2009-05-17T12:42:00.003+08:00

2009-05-11T10:47:00.009+08:00

Pictures from outings with girlfriends. And celebration of Mother's day.

Updates at livejournal, as usual! :)

2009-04-23T23:15:00.007+08:00

I had to privitase my blogspot for a while. Since it was abit messy the other time. But I put all my old codes back. So theres not much difference. Haha.

Pictures of the SLV chalet. And the short sheesha trip with the girls.

All updates are done over at my livejournal! Chiao!

2009-03-30T22:12:00.013+08:00

2009-03-19T09:44:00.010+08:00

BALI PICTURES.

2009-03-07T18:20:00.018+08:00

Back from Vietnam trip of 2 weeks. I had my share of fun. I updated everything over here. So as usual this is my photo blog,instead of updates. :)

Anyways, these are only some of the pictures from my camera, and some I stole it from their facebook. See you guys on Wednesdaaaaay! :)

crazy little girl.

Yes, I cried aloooot.

The irritating tourist guide, who called me Mary-san. And said I have big boobs! Wth. Haha!

Vietnamese hotstuffffffffff.

MY FAVOURITE BOY, SCHOOOOOL. :(

FAVOURITE GIRL.

2009-02-11T23:45:00.002+08:00

School's toilet.

Rebel with Sarah.

Over at ecp.

Dinner with family.

2009-01-25T14:02:00.042+08:00

At Last! I have uploaded all the pictures taken at East Coast with the favourite girls. Too bad it wasnt full strength. Some people just couldnt make it. But that's normal already. We did have tons of funs! Haha,too baaad.

Were there to celebrate Mai's and Aisyah's nineteenth birthday!

Okay, pictures are up girls and boys. Haha. Total of 250 pictures. No thanks to the photographer yang tangan tak tau diam! Hhaha.

Believe me, if you have a hard time looking at these pictures, it was harder for me to upload all and edit the spacings and all! Haha.

Till then.

Updates going to be at my livejournal baby!

2009-01-13T22:55:00.005+08:00

Ive decided to use this blog as a pictorial blog instead. No updates on my life and so on.

School started,and ending soon! So here's the picture we took in class.

Tsk, engineering students like this ah? Hahaha!

And the guys are trying to make a fool out of themselves by acting like hooligans mats. Hahaha! And they were literally making noises, like mats, dressed like them and walked around the whole level! Tsk!

2008-12-30T00:15:00.018+08:00

Okay people here's the birthday celebration pictures. Oh my God, I miss those crazy crazy times, and I did had fuuuun. Thanks to each and everyone of you who bothered to remember. From text messaging, to MSN, friendster, and even call me up, and even be there by my side when it strikes twelve.

These girls, Lina and Ili sucks at lying, and giving surprises. I even received a text message from Ili the day before my birthday. Yes, eventhough that, I was shocked, and pleased you girls made the effort to be there on my special day. They came after I had one hell of a night of clubbing. So, that explains my messy face and all. Nevertheless, thank you girls. I love the presents, and the sweet card. :)

Then on the day itself, Mama decided to have my birthday celebration with the family over at Lau Pa Sat. I invited the girls over. Since we be staying over there till late. Nothing beats to have spend your birthday with your family and also friends. We ate supppperrr massive alot! We were bloated by then. And we have to finish up the Ice Cream cake from Swensens too! Haha!

The highlight of mybirthday was definitely with theusual girls. And the girlfriend's boyfriend, Zul. And oh yea, the ex boyf too! I definitely appreciate you people being there for my birthday. I love you people.

Yea, clubbing was fuuuun. Being eighteen, I will not forget these day definitely with these people.

The kissing pictures were when we were already drunk. Haha!

I cant even hold the camera straight.

Couples for the night; Waty and Mai

Shiera And Zul.

Me and Zaidi.

So yea, must take picture with the birthday girl right? Haha.

And the girls were so sweet to give me this Cookie Monster cupcake.And said they bought it cause Zaidi was wearing the same colour as it is! Hahaha!

The best.

So yea, definitely a blast on my birthday. To those who remembered, once more I can never thank you enough. To those who doesnt even bother, eventhough we're close, it jsut shows sho much, isnt it? Sampai sms pon tak layan. Hahahaha! Its okay. Ade pegi ade balik. Isit? HAHAHAHA. Sorry, malay sucks. Those who I thought cared to even remember, but they were the ones who are useless actually. Thanks eh korang! Hahaha!

And to NURUL NEEA, you so sweet you know? I appreciate it that you bother to wish me even. Really reallllly. You are extremely sweet. Eventhough we're only blogmates, you go to that extend. Some of my close friends dont even bother, eventhough they have my new number! Haha! I aprreciate it ok, darling. Evnthough I didnt receive it, I still think you're the sweetest. I pass you my number pretty soon! :D

No Im not going to be back blog in blogger, just that, I rather post pictures here, instead of blogging here. S yea. :) Till then, lovelies.

2008-12-28T15:17:00.002+08:00

For those who have reached me through my old phone, some of you may know Ive changed my number. Cause I didnt want to pay for my bills. Hahaha! And being today is my eighteenth birthday, Im sorry if youdo text me at my old number, Im sorry if I do not reply back. Hehe!

Anyways, yes, I had a blaaaaaast eighteenth with my favourite girls! I update it at the other blog soon enough! http://fcukyoubiatch.livejournal.com/

Yes, thats my new link. I will lock my personal entries over there. For a new start. So, dont get shocked ehhh! Haha! :D

Take care people. And baby, its my birthday, and Im so happppppy!

2008-12-15T19:48:00.002+08:00

Ive decided to leave this blog. Yes, but I wont be deleting it away, cause the memories are jsut too precious.

To those linked, you may ask for my new URL personally, cause Im having the other blog a private place. Nyehahaa! Many things has happened, be it good or bad. Im still here, standing strong, as every single day passed. Please do leave your email add, if you want any enquiries, be it MSN or invites to blog. Thank, dearies! And one more thing, birthday is coming!! Cant wait! Hahaha! Bye! :) So long!

2008-12-01T22:10:00.002+08:00

I know Ive not been updating. A lot of things have been happening. Be it good or bad. But the bad always get to the better of me, sadly.

Its sucky to have people judge you just by how the way I look. I received this quite alot through out my eighteen years. Its not something nice to hear. And Im sorry, I aint pretty, skinny, or have big breasts, small legs, or even minah-ish loooking like the girls you drooooool at! Hahaha! But that doesnt matter much, cause I lead a normal and humble life. I basically got everything I want, and I can have whatever I asked for. Yes, my family got money, not bragging. But yeah. I dont need people like you to bring me down.

This weigh issue's been bugging me, but its okay. I loss some, I admit. Honestly, Ive been depressed. I go through a rough time about me being big. And honestly Im a bulimic. Till now, Im not seeking attention. I cant take it anymore. People say whatever they please. But they dont know how much Ive suffered. Like Ive lost near to 10 kg for one month because of that. That bad, I know. Eversince that, my body is very weak.Only God knows,till now.

I did that because of you, yes you people. But heck, Im the one to blame by the end of the day. Ask my close friends, eventhough Im big, I eat so little, they always kept complaining. Yes, that bad I know. I dont feel hungry. And I dont eat outside, cause I cant puke. Ergh, forget it. I shouldnt be telling about this.

Im not perfect you see. I try my best to fit in, to be perfect. Im no good. I admit I did alot of bad stuffs. But at the end of the day Im only human. Human with feelings.

I'll be hiatus for now. Till when I dont know.

And oh ya, for those you can reach me through my REAL msn account.Ask me for it. And I wont be signing in much to almostsuperhuman@hotmail.com or my old msn add which is nuyul_mj@hotmail.com even. If the email is not stated here, then thats the only place you can reach me. My cell will only be answered and active for close friends. And I wont be active in any network accounts for now. I like myself to be free from people knowing my doings and stuffs.

I only update my other blog, that some of you have it. I gave you, cause I trust and you guys matter to me. You can tag though. Take care people! Reach me in msn. :) Cheerios.

2008-11-27T09:35:00.002+08:00

Alot of things has been happening. Be it good or bad. Im glad things happened. And hopefully the bad things get better. My days has been spend only with my girls after school. From lepak, to town, talk about one stuff to another. Just that. It feels nice. Not having to think about other stupid little details. Oh maybe, just that one matter that make us worry and all. Hopefully things will be okay. At this point of time, this situation happened, we know who's a true friend and who is not.

Egoistic, self centred and come to us only for fun time. That's what you called friend? I got nothing to say. Haha!

Its funny how the other day I met with the girls and Zul, and we talked about everything under the sun. Yes, everything. Haha! From the current crisis of recession, to religious, to just everything. Haha. Its funny, and we didnt know we spend 3 hours or so sitting down there. Haha!

Im in school now, and Im so lazy and bored. And December coming soon, baby! It means birthday soon. I cant wait, because I want to enroll my license, and I aim for at most one year to pass, and I behaving my own car. Gerek peeee. Okay soon enough to say. Insyallah, hopefully.

2008-11-25T14:42:00.002+08:00

Im sick. Being woken up with a sexy voice, a bad flu and irritating cough, just sucks. I know, Ive been neglecting this blog. Like I said, I got another blog, where I penned down things without second thoughts. If you do want to read it, or kpo, sure can. Ask me, and I give it to you, baby. Haha!

On another note, Im glad you are here to be with me. To go through everything with me. Good day,people! :D

2008-11-19T12:41:00.009+08:00

Pictures were from the other day. Impromptu plan with the girls to sheesha. Excuse us for the pictures, cause we are only having funnnn!

2008-11-18T23:51:00.002+08:00

Yes, baby. At last, im getting my hands on you. Haha!

I will be collecting this sexy phone tomorrow. And I cant wait. Haha. Maybe, jsut maybe I be changing my number. Because my phone bill line is wayyyy too expensive. Mama has been nagging about this and that. Especially about me wasting money. Lucky thing, she let me buy this new cell. Its time for me to change my phone anyways.

Okay, I cant wait! :D

2008-11-17T20:05:00.002+08:00

Im so pissed off right now, cause my phone line could not send messages or make outgoing calls. Ergh! I paid my bills already. Ok, some of it. But its always not like this. And this month bill is Ike what, $250 plus? Haha! But Mama will pay for me. It sucks la, really.

Ok bye. Hahaha.

2008-11-14T09:44:00.003+08:00

Its Friday, baby. And its the weekend. I cant wait, cause I can sleep and jsut enjoy myself. Not caring about school, eventhough I think I absent most of the time in school! Haha.
A huge relief is that, my Professional Profiling is actually cleared, and Ive passed. And to Lina, you can do better, the next time, dont worry too much. You have my back!
I had a hugeeee argument with Mama the other day. But things are back to normal, I guess?
Too many things happened, in those little times. And psst, Ive been listening to love songs nowadays. Hahah.
Ok, update later. And hopefully will be a good weekend. Take care, people!

2008-11-13T08:04:00.003+08:00

Hello loves. I know Ive not been updating this site of mine. Reason being is that, I actually have another blog. Where I update it without second thoughts, of people sayings and whats not. Its a private one anyways. If you wish to read, and if I let you, then you may. Haha! And to Lee, you're the first in knowing about my life, when noone else does.

Nothing much has been happening. Life's so mundane nowadays, and I feel like closing down this blog. And just stick to the other one. But well, I dont think so.

I update this blog soon alryt. Take care, you all! :D

And psssst, those of you who know my other blog link, please, do not go around and tell others. I give you, tagged you, because I trust. :) So, please. :)

2008-11-12T09:52:00.002+08:00

The rules and regulations:

1. Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about yourself.

2. People who get tagged need to write a blog of their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts as well as state this rule clearly.

3. At the end, you need to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.

4. No tags back !

**10 Weird things/habits/little known facts about Nuyul Aishah**

1) I dont know, whether you guys know about this. But however emotional I can be, I can never take life seriously. NEVER. Yes, I can be sad, but I still do eat alot, laugh and be happy. Cause all saddening matters can sucks balls. HAHAHAHA.

2) I always lie. Always. Hahahaha.

3) I cry for no reasons.

4) I look at girls and boys, and wonder how they look like when they are naked. yes,sick, I knowwwww. Hahahaha.

5) I always wonder, why am I, me? You know, I look at the mirror, touch my faces, and body, saying why must this be me. And I start to wonder.

6) I think the man im marrying is someone i dont love. succks balls. hahahaha

7) i find myself rather attractive than any other ugly bitches out there. Hahahahaha.

8) I fantasize, alot. Talk to myself, alot. Im going to turn crazy soon. Really. Haha.

9) Im very quiet to those I just know, but once you know me, I be the most irritating creature on earth.

10) Ive always dreamt to be the most popular, sexiest, cleverest, and to be every guy's dream girl. But the last one dreaming is definitely me. HAHAHAHAHA.

10 ppl that I want THEM to DO DIE DIE:

anyone on my list. love love loveeee. :D

2008-11-09T15:14:00.003+08:00

So the other day, celebrated Mama's 41st birthday over at Lau Pa Sat. Aunts and cousins came over. Just a small celebration. Didnt even get to eat alot! Cause I cam very late with little brother. Haha!

I spend a bomb for Mama's birthday preparations. Did for her a hugeee card with pictures of us family. The funniest pictures was of course, us three sibling, doing nonsensical photo faces and gave it to Mama. Bought for her the cake form the above picture. And also, a Chanel perfume which cost 200 bucks. Haha! But its all for Mama. So yea, Im happy she knows that I at least did something for her. Rather than her thinking Im always so irresponsible.

And Granny has yet again admitted to hospital. Its very worrying. I hate the hospitals, jsut the thought of it makes my heart wrench. Its been how many times already in the hospital. Just hope things and her health gets better.

The thought of settling down lingers to me now. I know friends know I can never be serious. Even you know when I have boyfriends, I never really loved them. It struck me that I should really settle down. I want to, really. But I don't know with who. They say love is just like gambling, if you're scared, you can never find one. You gotta take the risks. Ive fallen in love and played around with many guys around. It got me scared. If even married men, dare to flirt around with single girls. Whats more any guy who's not even legally attached to you.

Who knows, a rarity might occurred? I may fall in love, or maybe try to get serious with someone any of these days? I know Ive been close to guy friends here and there. But its all up to me to decide who I want to be happy with. Cause you know, Ive been trying to please people around me all my life. How about making me happy this time, and leave whatever you want to say, and hurt me. I want to be happy for once! And if it's conclusion wasnt expected, I dont need you to say, ' I told you so one day you will regret it!.' Tell me how many people goes through all that. Life is never fair, and easy. Its all about learning and experiencing. If the aftermath isnt what I expected it to be. Be it! At least Im happy for that moment.

Yes, I do have someone in mind. But its okay for now, let things be how it is.
And baby, you just got back home. More than happy to be in your arms. Let things be clear for once. You are definitely way better than before. And pandai da start loving2 and jealous2? Haha.

2008-11-03T20:42:00.003+08:00

Its like running for miles, and then you gotta stop to choose between two. Either right or left. Or isit another chance? To run back to where it all started. I hate the way I think, and how my heart and mind doesnt collaborate well to what I desire. Things are sucha in a mess right now. I want things to be better, and easier for me to decide. But what is better for me, for you and for us, for now? Ive always try my best to be honest. Eventhough how much it hurts you or me.
Im one who believe in chances. I can even tell you, I will still take back the last ex if he did come back to me. That's beside the point.
I cried, talking to you. Not because I love you. Just that, I treat everyone the same. Im someone with feelings. And Im very sensitive. Now Im left to decide. I feel like just breaking down, and just crawl back to where and how life is.

2008-11-02T19:49:00.003+08:00

My weekend was pretty much all right. My Saturday was spend with Syerzan to movies over at Cathay. Caught The Coffin, which I think was sucha waste of money. Haha! Headed over to Tampines back. Had dinner and talked.

Had a great day. And thanks for the treat! :D

And for today, Sunday, Im stuck at home again. Ergh!

So, being tomorrow is Monday, time flies so fast, and its back to school! Sucha drag. I cant miss any lesson anymore. Because Mama and Daddy found out about my attendance in school. And we made a pact, that I cant work, and I still get my monthly allowances from them plus extra allowances! Haha. How nice. Its good to quit working too, cause I can spend more time alone, with family and girlfriends too! So, I take it as a blessing in disguise.

Other than that, Mama's birthday is drawing near. Ive made some plans. And I can only hope for things to go right for this Friday. Insyallah. :)

Personal matters, I just let my heart knows about it, for now. I tried falling in love, but I cant see myself being head over heels when Im with someone. For now, things may seems easy and all planned out. But only God knows what's in this heart. Ive always see myself as someone whom is very fickle minded and never can make up what I want. But for now, Im very sure I want to be carefree, single and enjoy life first. I want to date out, be friends with many people. And just be happy. It isnt too much to ask, right?

One thing Im not fickle minded about! I want Mama and Ayah to let me stay over at the girl's house. Because we wanna partaaaaaay. Its been super long since I danced, get drunk, flirt and just have fun! Come soon,please. :)

2008-10-29T23:29:00.000+08:00

I know, its been so long since Ive updated. Its either too busy with school (which I dont think so), work, friends and family. I let the pictures do the talking, as usuals. I blog again tonight or some other day. Cause I be free most of the time this week, I guess. Cheers, people!

Some things are meant to be kept secret or to be told. For us, we glad we tell it to each other. To end it all. Yes, truth hurts. But its better now than never. You know I love you. And friends worth much more than any guys. Hopefully it is.

And the other day the working mates send Iwan to airport cause he's flying off to Indonesia.

Drinking session with the girls the other day. From Balcony to Chips. I saw Fariz over there. I swear I was staring at him and he look goddamn hot! With his thin lips. Haha. Too bad, hes gay!

I was abit high, but I guess everything's ok. Just that my laptop dropped when I alighted from the cab. Haha. And yes, my lappy now look ugly already. So sad. I was actually calling different friends on my phonebook. I even talked to someone I promised not to talk to. I talked crap and utter rubbish. But heck, I wasnt at the right state of my mind that night.

Alot of things have been happening over here, be it with family, with friends and guy friends. But I realised one thing, how much I am sad or dissapointed about one thing, I can always pick myself up once again. And be the irritating one as before. Haha!

Cheers poeple!

2008-10-21T14:49:00.002+08:00

tak pernah terpikir oleh
ku tak sedikit pun kubayangkan
kau akan pergi tingalkan ku sendiri

begitu sulit kubayangkan
begitu sakit kurasakan
kau akan pergi tingalkanku sendiri

dibawah batu nisan kini
kau tlah sandarkan kasih sayang kamu ……
begitu dalam sungguh ku tak sanggup ini terjadi
karna ku sangat cinta

inilah saat terakhirku melihat kamu
jatuh air mataku menangis pilu
hanya mampu ucapkan selamat jalan kasih

satu jam saja kutelah bisa cintai kamu,kamu,kamu
dihatiku namun bagiku melupakanmu
butuh waktuku seumur hidup

And everytime this songs plays, I will cry. Why is it that you have to leave at these very moment. Come back soon. Twelve days is not short. I told you I wait. And now realise how much you loved me when want to leave. Eventhough my feelings for you arent there yet. I appreciate you being honest. Yes, you love me. I always give you a hard time, but you always be right here by my side, how much I hurled vulgarities at your face, pinch you and beat you up. I never onced told you I like you, but only say I hate you, and you're a motherfucker that do nothing but trouble my life. They say absence makes the heart grow fonder. And I find myself tear up reading your text message this morning. I be here waiting for you to come back,friend.

2008-10-21T13:11:00.003+08:00

2008-10-20T11:25:00.003+08:00

Things havnt been always the bright side. In a short period of time, many things happened. Both of us were to be blame. Im very fickle minded, even when it comes to loving someone. One moment I may say I love you, the other, I may look at drool at other boys.

That's beside the point. Now that things doesnt go well between us, but I always did the part of apologising first. No doubt, I used to like you very much. Ive spend alot on you. Dinner, movies and dates. Ive never been asking alot from you. But I guess its totally the end for us. I treated you well, but I guess you were really blinded by all that. I miss you, I do. But I guess there's much things in life to think of than this.

Update later with pictures and all.